Take Another Look

Invisible me slips on her pretty dress
Paints on a smile and happiness
Do you see her or the real me
Do the tears in my eyes matter anymore

Those bright eyes you seem to love
Are filled with despair and a cry for hope
I dream to be touched more than skin-deep
Shake me to my core

When have your fingertips traced me
Why don't you remember everything I am
Inside your life in the corners of your mind I'm placed
My value diminishes slowly

If you took another look at me
Maybe then you would see
You don't listen to what I have to say
You don't try to understand

My voice fades into the noices around you
My words are filed into your endless archives of non-memories
Never pulled from their place to be touched
My hurt goes unnoticed again today

Avoid the conflict once more
You think it will go away
Push me down and slam the door
It will be over soon

I wish I could shatter that wall that stands between us
The longer it's up the thicker it becomes
Criticize my feelings and the guilt will kick in
You think maybe I'll stop caring so much

Emotionally distant
I walked away yesterday
Did you feel me pull away at all
Did you realize I wasn't there when you fell asleep

Invisible me drifts away
Told you her feelings deep inside
Do you see me or what could be
Do the tears in my eyes matter anymore

A New Day

Today is a new day
It's the beginning of my future
It's the start of a new me

No more looking "two-steps ahead"
I will follow the lamplight at my feet
Trusting He will guide me when I trust in Him

I woke up and stepped outside knowing it would be different today
No turning back
No questions asked

I have to leave my world behind
It is not my own
My comfort becomes my confusion

As I'm leaving

As I'm leaving
A change comes on my eyes
These streets persuading me
With mumbled strange goodbyes

Through the water
Through the rain
To the soul of everything
Throw my heart out on the stones
And I'm almost gone

There's no meaning
In clothes and coffee cups
Cheap hotel furniture
Where silence never stops

Through the water
Through the rain
To the soul of everything
Throw my memories to the wind
And I'm almost gone

And now I'm dreaming
I'm staring at the walls
Cars are frozen nowIn late night waterfalls

Through the water
Through the rain
To the soul of everything
Throw my heart out on the stones
And I'm almost

Through the water
Through the rain
To the soul of everything
Wash my heart out on the stones
And I'm almost gone
-David Gray

The sun shines for me today
It's going to be a new me
A me that is happy

I choose what my life becomes
Yesterday I said my final goodbye to the old me
No wedding bells or bliss

No kiss goodbye
Just how it was supposed to be
I walked away from you yesterday

No more letting him hold me down
I'm picking myself up off the ground
I'm throwing it all away for the final time

Goodbye broken love
Goodbye regret and dispair
Goodbye you

Underneath the mystery of the future is me
Unveil a new bride
Lily white and renew

Twenty-One is Just the Beginning...

I slipped on my little black dress
Perfectly placed mascara
Red-kissed lipstick
Pearls and gold high-heels

I saw him pull up in an unfamiliar car
Pin-striped suit and button-up shirt
"You are stunning," he said
He turned me around and smiled

We walked to the car
"I forgot my wallet," he claimed
We drove to his place
Walked up the stairs
Opened the door

Candles and rose petals adorned the room
Fine china
Full-course meal
Wine chilled
Chocolate-covered strawberries and dessert

A perfectly wrapped gift
Pink bow
Canvas photographs
Two small envelopes

"Nascar" one read
The second was sealed with a ribbon
I began to unfold it

Tickets to a Broadway show
The best seats in the place
We drove downtown
Parked the car and walked in

The ambiance was amazing
Their voices resounding through the room
The set unfolded before our eyes
It was amazing

"One more stop," he stated
We drove again down the road
The valet took the keys
We walked inside

Up the winding staircase
Familiar faces awaited
Family and friends in their places
I took my seat

Appetizers
Conversations
The people I love in my life surrounded me
I talked and laughed and left

We walked down the streets
Stopped by the music
Found our seats nearby a piano
A sweet martini and one slow-dance later took hours

Then
We drove
Back to a place that feels like my own
Friends and late-night talks

The cool breeze brushed my skin
We stepped inside to rest on the sofa
Getting to know each other while the others talked
The night was over

It was time to go in
Thank you for loving me that much
Happy birthday to me
Twenty-one is just the beginning