Tuesday, December 9, 2008

My Daily Favorites

I've decided to write the things in life that bring that warm feeling inside of my heart.
...putting up the Christmas tree...listening to music...sipping on hot cocoa...a goodnight kiss...the warm covers when it's cold outside...

I really can't stay...(but baby it's cold outside)I've got to go 'way...(but baby it's cold outside)this evening has been so very nice...(I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice)my mother will start to worry...(beautiful, what's your hurry?)and father will be pacing the floor...(listen to that fireplace roar)so really I'd better scurry...(beautiful, please don't hurry)well maybe just a half a drink more... (puts some records on while I pour)the neighbors might think... (baby it's bad out there)say, what's in this drink?(no cabs to be had out there)I wish I knew how to break the spell...(I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell)I oughtta say no, no, no, sir(mind if I move in closer?)at least I'm gonna say that I tried...(what's the sense of hurtin' my pride?)I really can't stay...(baby, don't hold out)Ahh, but it's cold outsideI simply must go...(but, baby it's cold outside)the answer is no...(but baby it's cold outside)this welcome has been so nice and warm...(look out the window at that STORM!)my sister will be suspicious...(gosh your lips look delicious!)my brother will be there at the door...(waves upon a tropical shore!)my maiden aunt's mind is vicious...(gosh, your lips are delicous)well, maybe just a cigarette more...(never such a blizzard before)I've got to get home!(but, baby, you'll FREEZE out there!)say, lend me your coat...(it's up to your knees out there)you've really been grand!(I thrill when you touch my hand)but don't you see?(how can you do this thing to me?)there's bound to be talk tomorrow(think of my life long sorrow!)at least there will be plenty implied!(if you caught pneumonia and died!)I really can't stay!(baby, don't hold out)Oh, butBaby, it's cold outside!!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Sincerely, Me

I live to love those around me…sometimes a little more than I should. I give my heart easily, and I rarely get it back. I try to focus on the positive. I tend to remember the negative. I find that it is hard to forget those that have hurt me or helped me along the way. My memory is continually overflowing with gratitude and regrets. I like to be by myself to reflect and read. I hate to feel alone. I love to cook for those around me. Soup is one of my favorite things. I love chocolate and strawberries, and I often dance in the kitchen. I was born in the wrong decade, and I can’t seem to get enough of old-fashioned love songs. I love to sing. I hate the way I sound, but I wish someone would tell me that it sounds beautiful to them. I think it is important to back up your words with actions. If I say I love you, I mean it. Love doesn’t have one meaning. Love changes with every day. I still care about the people that have meant something at some point in my life. I believe everyone comes into my life for a reason. If I could turn back time, I would. I think time is an unnecessary concept. I have doubts for my future. I have the faith to move mountains. I want to be sure of what is to come. I want to be put first in a man’s earthly life. I want God to be his soul. I want him to have a reason why he loves me. I want to be talked to like I am the most important person in the world. I have little to offer and everything to offer. I want a marriage before a wedding. I won’t say I do until a man proves he will. I need to know I am being committed to. I need to be listened to and heard. I don’t like small talk, but I believe it sets the foundation for relationships. I want to get deep with someone. I believe theories should be tested to their limits. I want to find the answer in life. I question everything but God. Thinking is necessary for survival. I don’t think I don’t know is an answer to any question. I can’t stand to be ignored. I don’t want to be in the spotlight, I just want to feel cared for. I don’t believe chivalry died, I just think it is lacking in our world. I appreciate every act of kindness and Thank you is present in every part of my vocabulary. I expect to have my door opened, my hand held, and my lips kissed goodnight before I fall asleep. I love the covers. I could sleep all day if it weren’t for my desire to be busy. I don’t like the television. I enjoy movies, but I find it a waste of time. I want to create my own romance. I enjoy going to the park and swinging on the swings. I think children can teach you more than anyone in life. I love people and nature. My ideal day would include watching the sun rise and set. I think stars are one of the most beautiful things in the universe. I feel so small when I look at the sky. I don’t believe life is black and white. It is filled with vivid colors that make the day worthwhile. I love the Springtime for the flowers, the Summer for the sun, the Autumn for the falling leaves, and the Winter’s cold breath upon my skin. Candlelight and fireplaces warm my heart. I love to bundle up. I have an obsession with jackets and scarves. I compare life to the ocean…so much out there, impossible to see it all. I love the water. I would travel the world if I could. My favorite time of year is undefined. I enjoy any time that is with family or friends. I pray for my enemies every day. I am never satisfied with here and now. I want more out of life. I love my sisters so much, but I feel like I am different from them. I think animals are a gift to take care of. My dog is one of the most loyal people I have ever met. Chandeliers are one of my favorite things. I love light and beautiful things. I need to feel intelligent. I don’t try hard enough in tasks. I am terrible at biology. I enjoy math, but I lack understanding. I love to talk about philosophy, psychology, and sociology. Learning is a gift. There is more to life than I could ever know. I find it impossible to share all of life’s blessings. Passion in life makes everything worthwhile.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

My Beloved...


Over the years, I have come to realize the love of my Lord in so many ways. He is the center of everything. Without His compassion and mercy in my life, I wouldn't exist. I have always looked at Christ as my "Daddy", and everyday I grow to realize how much I need to focus on Him in every aspect of my life. I think I was wrong in imagining Him as my "eternal father". The worldly term Father suggests that we can find another person to take over the job. When we find that special someone, they fill the duties of our earthly father and fill a separate void. We find our husband, and somehow we allow them to become our provider. They take over the role of our father. Now, I see Christ as my Groom. He is my eternal lover. When I made that vow to accept Him, I took on a binding contract. There is no divorce of God. He is the one I can share my thoughts with...whether good or bad, I can confide in Him. He becomes the recipient of my secrets. He's the one I laugh with, cry with, and find strength in. The marriage journey I will on day embark on should be used as an illustration of love. I pray that others will look at the outward expression of love that my husband and I share. I pray they will take it as an example of how the church is to love Christ. Just as a wife submits herself to her husband, so should a Christian submit to Christ. Likewise, a husband is love his wife as Christ wholeheartedly and unconditionally loves His people. I pray I will be that wife.

Dear Lord,
Please use my body as a holy example of your work. Allow me to submissively love * as I should love you. Let me shine for non-believers around me. Give me the strength to smile and shed compassion in my marriage, even when my heart isn't in it. Please use * as your servant. Mold him according to your plan. Give him an open heart to understand your ways and love me in a manner pleasing to your Word. Let our marriage satisfy your good. I pray that in our weakness and short-comings, you will find strength in your might. Give us the wisdom and courage to face the world differently. Let us not lean on our own understanding...let us live for you. Let me realize the beauty of your neverending love and devotion. Allow me to listen attentively to what you have to say...always. I love you and I praise your precious and holy name.

Amen

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life

The lust and the lies
And the past you’re afraid I might see
You’ve been running away from me

You’re my beloved lover
I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we’ll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It’s a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need

I'm the giver of life
I’ll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Come running home to me

You’re my beloved lover
I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse forever we’ll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It’s a mystery

You’ve been a mistress my wife
Chasing lovers that won’t satisfy
Won’t you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips and you’ll taste new life

You’re my beloved lover
I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse forever we’ll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It’s a mystery